NOTHING WORKS!

I'm sorry that I haven't been blogging. I really attempted to catch up tonight as there have been lots of fun things happening that I really want to tell you about. But I can't find the chord to download the pictures.

Which has me frustrated. And this is my blog so I will vent if I want to!

I keep thinking that once this is paid off, or once this is fixed we will be able to save a little bit more and start coming out on top. But this never happens. Because it's one thing after the other after the other. And I've reached my breaking point.

It started with my knee. (My mini breakdown I am having). I have really done something. I don't know if that piece of cartilage that I have been sure I tore suddenly ripped all the way or what, but I cannot put any pressure on my knee. Meaning I can't get on my hands and knees without a sharp pain. It's swollen and sore. But can I go to the doctor? No. Because I can't get health insurance. I really thought once we got off Bob's, which we couldn't afford on our own (thank you Ruth and Frank) that I would just be able to get it privately. I was terribly wrong. I have been denied for a multitude of reasons each time I apply from being too heavy, to having neck issues, to being on birth control. In being denied already I cannot go to the doctor to have an x-ray to find out what I am dealing with so that at least I know, because that will only be one more reason for them to deny me.

Then we all got the flu. Except for Grant, who has had some signs but then seems absolutely fine. (Knocking on wood). Aid puked all over the couch and I have scrubbed it 2 times and it STILL smells like puke. The area rug in the living room smells of something too and I can't seem to get that smell out either! Then our fridge broke down. Again. Or at least half of it which doesn't make any sense to me. There are light bulbs out or lights broken in random closets. The toilet chain in the upstairs toilet keeps breaking and it drives me absolutely insane. And the internet that we pay a nice little penny for doesn't work (again)and we suddenly keep getting viruses.

This is not a post asking for help, so thank you both sets of parents, because I am sure you will both want to. But you have both helped us in so many ways. And we will be fine. And yes Bob, I completely understand that these are very little things compared to some things people are going through. We are very lucky and blessed and these are only minor inconveniences. Except for my heath insurance. I can be angry about that right?

I'm just frustrated that all the little things that just make your day a little smoother are all breaking down around me. I just need life to go smoothly for a little bit. Not long, just enough for me to catch my breath and feel a little calmer.

So I will post all my pictures and catch up on all my blogs when I find the damn camera attachment. We'll assume that once it's located it will in fact be working!

And Grant and Aid, when you read this someday, please remember that sometimes life just throws you lemons. You can't make lemonade out of it, and it's ok just to feel frustrated about it. It will pass and you will always be ok.