Friday, February 26, 2010

Here We Go Again....

So I just need to say that this whole letting go thing is really really hard. It feels good once you have done it, and even better when you see your baby use his wings on his own....but still hard. I don't believe it will ever not be hard.

We go on our first night away from Grant tomorrow night. I have spent all week freaking out about it. I have made lists, and worried, and basically been a pain in the ass. I absolutely know he will be fine. I just have to force myself to focus on the picture of him playing and running around and not the picture of him helpless and feeling abandoned. Oh yes, that is where I go.

This will help Grant grow up. He will learn that even though it is not done exactly the way mommy and daddy do it, that his needs are still met. And that then mommy and daddy come back and it's all exactly as it should be again. He will also understand that mommy and daddy are not just mommy and daddy. They are Bob and Karen. And that in order for us to be better parents to them, we have to stay Bob and Karen.

So we leave before his second nap tomorrow and will be back sometime after his first the next day. And he will be fine. We will be more then fine. And hopefully the grandparents are not too scarred.

But I am understanding more and more why they are called growing pains....

2 comments:

  1. And you're doing it so much earlier than when you first left Aid! Good job!! I always feel guilt and worry when I leave my kids but it goes away VERY quickly when I think about being free. (Remember that I left Matilda, at 5 months old, for three nights. I can't believe I was able to do it but it was soooo wonderful! Little dude is going to be FINE.)

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  2. you are so cute! I started leaving Evan overnight...wait....I think it just started more after he turned one. I would stop going to my parents after my nights out. I will actually leave him at friend's now and pick him up later. Okay, it took me a long time too!

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